You met me at a very strange time in my life. Here I am fresh out of high school and now done with my first year of college, still unsure of what I want to do with the rest of my eternity.
Each day is different and yet the same as I run through the motions. Some days I am on autopilot as I cruise through the hours, while others I am on high alert, every second turning into days.
I often lie awake at night wondering what tomorrow will bring. Will it be sunshine or rain? Thunder or merely wind? What decisions will I have to make and will those choices be of fateful importance? Will what outfit I wear or what I choose to eat for lunch hold sway over the course of my existence?
You met me at a very strange time in my life. Here I am a child in an adult's body, not yet 20 trips around the Sun. I still live in the house of my childhood with the people who raised me, each day walking in the footsteps of my younger form.
I often wonder to myself how much longer this shall continue to be. How many more days will I be in this house before it is time for me to go out and find another place to call home? How many more peels of laughter will ring within these walls? How many more tears shall be shed?
I am not ready to say goodbye to the days of youth, which become further and further away as each second passes. I do not know what I will do tomorrow nor who I will be, but know that with each day I become more myself.
You have me at a very strange time in my life, a time where even I do not know what each day will bring. However, we are here on this earth to live each day as if it were at last, so that is what I shall strive to do. Day by day, until one way or another, I leave this world happy and without regrets as I look back on all I have accomplished.
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